A Lesson Learned in the Game of Life…

This past week somethings happened to me where I felt very self conscious, embarrassed and uncomfortable. I felt pain and fear and I wanted to hide. The lesson I learned and put into action is regardless of how I feel, I won’t respond to my fears because - I have control over myself in this situation… (I can make a choice.)

What I mean is I can make some huge ‘thing’ out of the past few days events in my head - or I can learn that I am vulnerable, have feelings and I am subject to weaknesses. I think that is all part of the human condition and I am glad that I am sober today and at least playing my part in the game of life. I would much rather be in the game today, making my fair share of mistakes… than the alternative of sitting on my couch, alone with my head in a bottle of vodka drinking myself to death.

Batter up! By the way… Friday is my birthday and on June 17th I will be sober one year!
Yeah Team!

Whatever our protestations, are not most of us concerned with ourselves,

our resentments, or our self-pity?

Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.

Driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion,

self-seeking, and self-pity...

So our troubles, we think, are basically of our own making.

They arise out of ourselves,

and the alcoholic is an extreme example of self-will run riot,

though he usually doesn't think so...

Above everything, we alcoholics must be rid of this selfishness.

We must, or it kills us! God makes that possible.

 

AA Big Book - Pg 63